“Chaos - A choosing between those things at provide safety and stability and a tibetan tradition called moving toward the sharp point – confronting our growth edge and challenging defences"
Life is pure potentiality if you can welcome it with open arms. It involves seeing beyond your own limits and tapping into a perspective which you are yet to understand or even contemplate. Opportunities are only ever borne out of stagnancy when life throws you the monkey's wrench and it manifests as being trapped in an invidious state of humdrum or normalcy. You can desperately yearn for something more that excites you but the way things have been thus far, the status quo and everything you have come to know doesn't lend itself to anything new
By nature our egos prefer safety but there also exists an unconscious drive to be free of the imposed restrictions in our lives. The blocked, thwarted dead-ends which we find ourselves in, the stale outworn and inhospitable intermediary state is really just an illusion that hoodwinks us into believing this is the only way things should be. Poised for the kind of change where we are accustomed to resort to fallback strategies along our path we are actually at a juncture to receive something from the imminent future to create a new present.
The paltry belief systems that have got us thus far and served us well up until this point makes for a constricting hold over our prospects. The problem solving, fixing, explaining and taking sides with blame with both winners and losers is like a mouse trapped in a perpetual wheel. We have no sense of where we are going or how to get there but the dilemma of repeating cycles can only lead to one place – a place of sacred transmutation.
When monumental shifts are required it involves an entirely different approach – a new way of seeing, thinking, being and doing. But in a state of suspension all transmutation takes place here in the emptiness, a stark designation that has no resolution for the uncomfortable void. A place where we feel our feathers have been completely ruffled by the uncomfortable ambiguity and dealing with the chaos and unknown. Chaos dictates that the solution to the problem must be higher than the situation that created it in the first instance. We can't rely on old and inadequate zero hour solutions to our predicament, so it catalyzes an upgrade to a more freer, open and transcendent state of being.
We naturally fear chaos but its an unlikely faclitator of change that catapults us onto a new destiny timeline. The beauty of chaos is we can be born into something beyond anything we have known or yet thought within the realms of possibility. Our feeble frantic attempts to try and patch up this urgent situation will fall terribly short of producing enduring ideas to spark the real vision ahead.
We tend to nurse a deep mistrust of what the future portends but really what is required is a good measure of surety and faith and a receptivity to new ideas. Its through the deconstruction of our normative values, cutting ourself adrift from olds ways of being and acknowledging their timely cessation we can regrasp what is new.
Being sandwiched between the familiar and the completely unknown involves implicit trust in the cosmos and abiding in this state with an open acknowledgement of seeing a dead belief system being seen for what it is – superfluous and extraneous leit motif that needs to be jettisoned. In the vaccuum we see our defences and certitudes crumbling – we are caught between worlds as the door begins to close on an old chapter of our life, sparking a spontaneous allegience with a new and more conscious life.
"We are so much more than we know. and... is a new way of feeling, being and creating. It's where evolution is inviting us to go"
~ "Anamika", psychotherapist and metaphysics teacher
It feels abortive on many levels yet there is no turning back but we must be free to live a more conscious life and be brave enough not to be swept in the undertow. This constitutes a crucial and natural point of growth where we can experience renewal on all levels. We are stuck in a place of waiting. Waiting is normal and natural but we tend to resist it with all our might as we crave movement and engagement with life.
Its the time between wounding and healing and finding your place along the journey as a spiritual adult. This does not mean you will be unflappable but to instead cultivate patience, hope, perseverence and a humility in the face of seemingly unshifting dynamics. We then bear witness to our defences and certitudes crumbling while the temptation is to possibly back-peddle when the future always awaits us. The native peoples of the world call it “crazy time” as it ruptures and purges our soul, calling to action a response out of our periphery beyond recycling our past – it is a destructive process, its objectionable and initially serves as a great blow to the ego – but something within us must perish.
Its choosing between staying stuck in the shackles of normalcy and old-fashioned solutions to fix the lost, confused, unsure, unclear, perplexed, disorientated and bewildered you achieve nothing. What is required is to entertain the realm of uncertainty where you must exist in a state of limbo with all the vexatious elements and with this heavy cloud of unknowing. We can then leave the tried and true which no longer works and exit this place of constraint and limitation and draw on new answers and possibilities.
By tempering our response and willfully submitting to chaos out emerges a fresh territory and a new manner of being which the mind could not readily conceive of with our finite selves and linearity of thought. Its a point of intersection between reckoning and exalted epiphany. Its not about finding God through the power of sheer will alone but the will of God that actually alters your everyday mind. You are then changed, not from a place of knowing or assuredness but an openness beyond anything we have known, thought, felt understood, called reality. In this space Neitszche said “God is dead” or at least the old God is dead and the restraint that held you back is no longer there.
It takes deep surrender, not as an act of passivity or weakness but an emergent receptive quality that is yielding to the natural wonders of the world. By relinquishing our need comprehend it and fathom it with our minds or be in control it takes a tremendous amount of courage as the old guard collapses and to be in a space of allowing that grants permission for an enlargening effect on your consciousness. To acknowledge that sometimes we have to wait and hold onto your hat demonstrates a humility at a downtime interval while fully immersed and standing in your pain.
To allow our prevailing world view to totally collapse and have greater clarity about where our limitations and shortcomings are and to honor this difficult time of passage as one of benevolence through which a new schematic arises. We can then re-enter the wonderfully expansive and nurturing waters of abundant life once again to re-create ourselves as more evolved and individuated people.
Its these junctures in life that teach us where to let go and allow our lives to be revolutionised from both within and without. Its just about allowing this space to exist despite our frantic and haphazard endeavours to set it right and fall back on our default mechanisms. The processing can be painful and annihilating but what is required is an assimilation of more facets of ourselves coming from a place that is beyond our scope of reasoning. The crucible stirs our complexes on a deep visceral level but the knack is learning how to live with the inherent tension of existing in tandem with a world between worlds.
All this occurring as the hand of fate is birthing something more appreciable as the universe keeps expanding. Its this stimulus that serves to shake up the stagnancy and in doing so to do a clearing out an unblocking of the pipe so to speak of emotional, verbal and physical limitations. The life is and its contents of waste must be purged for it to run clear again. This heralds a new sense of being and doing, a refinement through the action of sensitizing experiences that make us exercise a new part of our nature that spontaneously arises and releases us from the hopelessness, the way things have customarily been and ultimately from he void which we find ourselves in.
The knee-jerk responses of self reproach, the blame, the anger, the indignation are always our first reactions to crisis but these reference points also get disassembled and melt away after our ship has come to the shore to bless us with greater boons and entitlements. Its like Jesus in the wilderness or even better the 3 days after the crucifixion, Siddhartha under a tree and St John of the Cross' dark night of the soul. The lesson is these experiences are illuminating a new path beyond yourself and you discover who you are anew.
Its very easy to regress, stagnate and resist as we naturally fear the future, the past seems so comfortable, predictable and habituating, we don't have sufficient faith in surrendering to the providence the future is intrinsically endowed with. In essence its beyond something we can “think” or philosophise about or make right – the ego is always trying to assert itself and harness reality but must take a back seat. The more semi-enlightened states cannot be arrived via convoluted thinking.
The situation actually requires us to be in a state of passivity, receptivity and a state of yin if you like to draw from Taoist thought. Non-action. To nurture and allow the flowering of potentiality of what is yet to become within us. It is in this dormant state of unknowing and hat we have allreadty cast an invitation to the universe which will be answered in ways that go beyond concepts and ideas. Thus transfiguring or very being and make us more of who we have been. It welcomes the transformational power to remake our souls, change the very foundation of our very lives and totally reinvigorate us from the ground up.
Its this new energy that gives us the type of original paradigm shift which is the criterion we need to open to greater possibility and the promised lands. If you are floating in this liminal space trust that the answer will come. You will emerge feeling better and experience change on a dramatic level that lends you to trust in cosmic flow and a tolerance of ambiguity. In the superficial age of “certainty” with sound bytes, ideological and political stances and all manner of declarations ambiguity is anomalous.
This process is not popular in today's culture of distractions and fleeing from the confrontations with our inner selves. But it will liberate you from feeling immobilized and regressive and the generalised numbness that accompanies this. It will serve to animate your very life and the point of confluence will fade into another poignant scene in the rear view mirror of life. According to human behaviouralist, Maslow: belonging is a primal need and you will always be led on an instinctual level to create a new life from the one you have outworn. Nature abhores a vaccuum is the old adage so be imbue your life with contentment and dignity despite the tension. Your unshakable faith that will impel your forward momentum and serve you into the future and worlds beyond