“The older I grow the more I trust in the law which the Rose and Lily bloom” ~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
It was an astrological conjunction involving Eris with Uranus recently. I had her surreptitious calling card many years ago with Eris that caused so much apparent strife which would irrevocably carve out my new destiny. Something that prized open a big scary jack-in-the-box to execute my fate as an act of misplaced vindication. A tit-for-tat retribution for what was seeping from within my humanity that posed as threatening or intimidating to someone.
In bloodthirsty rage and fury Eris tossed a poisoned apple to me which caused a tumultuous falling of dominoes in an act to try and restore the natural order. She did the primitive and avaricious warmongering task of creating a feud by balancing the books and grasping my mind by an act of cruel passion. I was ultimately being rendered at the mercy of being “crowned”, the raping of my mind with the fierceness of scalping locks. The Greek Trojan War of bronze age conflict had been unleashed through the raw feelings, dangerous ritualistic intent and crude warrior aggressions in the seizing of power. Through a perceived cycle of retribution something was stolen from me from a vengeful heart in an act of conquest to show the power of the bloody sacrificial medicine that contained an act of cruel strength and nefarious brutality. Militant Eris' curse was issued from her bloody lips and executed it in a way which scorched the entire earth. The slanderous-tongued deadly hate and the testosterone fuelled high octane biliousness that emanated from the immoderate behaviour of insalubrious people. They tried with a doggedly persistency to unearth my demons in an act to slay a vampire. Thus having abruptly identified someone with without measure of restraint to exorcise via a king's carnival of honor killing, lawlessness, arbitration and judgement.
I was unhinged creating a new miserable fate of a debauched life as a libertine bohemian cast to the very unhospitable fringes of existence. The trials and burdens and weightedness being plunged into a void of surreal darkness with the underworld where the light barely entered in through the cracks. This was my first encounter with Eris which changed the course of my life. Via the permeating deathliness of chaotic fate I drowned in regions of obscured consciousness being swept into the dragnet of a warped black hole and then into the waters of fierce shakti. From the confines of the “bastille walls” of a sterile and discordian cocoon for at least 18 hazy and desolate years rendered sickly and feeble by the holy flame of passion
“There is no decent place to stand in a massacre” Leonard Cohen
You cannot dilute, sanitize or gloss over these reservoirs of darkness. I lived captive in a state of chemical lobotomised suspension, in tandem to both worlds mainly inhabiting a faceless void which is normally inaccessible and can't be traversed. I existed on the dangerous, psychotic and chaotic periphery from which the portal of creation emerged from the planetary grid. I took to embody something, an unsacred “signature” that would come to be suppressed, vilified and projected upon by parochial forces.
There was no turning back. I had entered a new doorway a place or threshold of no return – it was alone in a terrain from which I had swapped my hallowed, measurable and sane existence for something uncomfortable, ill-fitting, intoxicating and less orthodox, Having to operate in a hallway of distortion and mirrors beckoning me to be resolute and steadfast while all the same having to bravely face the formless darkness ALONE with no guide or "shaman" - just the ministrations of those trying to penetrate my intractable, ever changing and non homogenised cage of darkness. Eris' activations permeated through me with hooks, rips, dissociations and possessions of sorts if you will. I can't ascribe a befitting word yet I truly felt abducted by a force of nature. I had a direct experience of Eris, her emanations did not come from a distance afar - it was face to face encounter with the piercing crystal eyes of a hideous looking vulture that chills the marrow of the bone. One multiple shadows bringing me into syncopation with a hypnotic dance into other dimensions of consciousness. It carried no warning label. I had no choice or options to forfeit this messy plan in accepting a contract replete with the seemingly embodied darkness of a demon goddess overturning my foundations and running a shockwave through my circuitry. All the aspects that were murky, primordial, submerged and ill-defined became a part of my inner transfiguration of her powerful emanating energy.
I would directly experience the huge intensity of hate and rage not that beyond that of a single soul but the immense ocean of tears of millions borne over the Ages. The world's pain began to enter my head in waves and through this obtuse and ghastly hijacking I would learn to put my heart in the world through the same channel of Eris – the beautiful uplifting emanations of this goddess that capitulated me from the very grounding beneath my feet. It constituted a tribal initiation, a grotesque rite of passage the cutting the previous ties at hand and the merging my awakening with the bearings Eris imposed on me. I could not be reworked or fashioned into the old person I once was or made to awkwardly fit into mainstream or be the type of girl that people wanted me to be. They were in the business of “sane-making”. Yet I found an underworld fortress where love, passion and justice abided in each-other's presence in the bizarre impossible territory which was so much larger than myself or my fractured ego which was scattered like million stars in the cosmos.
I learned there was aspects to the human condition that did not attack in Eris' or glorify in her name. Others that did not indiscriminately carve society into the chosen elect few versus the reductionistic-debased nature of the suburban beast. I originally came to fear Eris because she was so foreboding, vengeful and cruel. She wanted to annihilate me and she relished the shedding of blood. But it was about all of her not just her shadowy and lunatic and avenging emanations, her shadow but everything being encapsulated in her being – every fractal of light through a prism and shades of the rainbow to which you had to discover what was so sacred about it.
I had to learn to live in her service, she was not overseeing my life like a protective and pateralistic diety but was a permeating visceral and disruptive force to me that menacingly overtook my life. She defied categorization and operated in outside holographic parameters, a dispeller of illusions and existing in the bisecting of inaccessible and alternate realities. She was from the underworld yet the cultural biases had allready exalted her in a dualistic type approximation to her true nature as being truly one of both the emissary of light and darkness.
She was both cruel and unyielding yet a transporter to other existential realities and far off destinations. Her foreboding shrieking nature acting as a contortionist to the brain to unveil portals to the murky depths that are both frightening and devouring. But despite being identified as a cruel villainess she is the balancer of contrasts and shows the way out of a biased consciousness. The totality of her being is to cross boundaries of what is natural. To be too heroic does not protect the owner of ones being from being assailed with scrutiny and edification from the broader public. You can't breathe new life into a redundanct form – it unequivocably has to prepare itself for going beyond what you allready know. The pot has been stirred, you are being remade and all facets of your being have to undergo the change in readiness for the descent. You just cant quake with fear at the knees appeal to be accepted by those who were left remaining of your family and friends - its like scaling a dangerous impasse`clad in satin ballerina pointe shoes. But this is exactly what Eris asks of us, to be different to be unflappable in gruelling circumstances as there is no expedient way to buy your easy ticket through life.
Being killed and devoured by Eris means entering a new life cycle by which no fairness or rulebook can operate or exist, plea bargaining is useless, there is no civility, no fairness – she relinquishes your autonomy - it's automatically snatched from you into which your cherished dreams fade to nothing and you have to bravely create a new future but out what? An oath to healing yourself in an act to heal others and ultimately that of the goddess Eris herself.
Eris in astrological mythology operates under the guise of Aries in astrology and her activities rule everything governed by that sign. If you want to know where she is hiding out its usually existing within that territorial domain. For me it was to do with my head – Aries rules the head. Eris will operate usually wherever Aries is – wherever there is Aries you will find Eris lurking about usually accompanied by highly charged and inflammatory situations. I checked my astrological chart and the Eris dwarf planet was at 13 degrees Aries which is smack on the cosmobiology (health zodiac) trigger point to do with the brain. The Jane Ridder-Patrick Healing Body Point for health for this degree is you guessed it the ventricles of the brain. With advances in brain imaging techniques and other developments in neuroscience, the evidence has come clear that mental illness is a disorder of the brain. It typically presents as having enlarged ventricles as demonstrated in over hundreds of studies to date. I have Eris in my 10th house and the Sabian Symbols psychic reading for this degree which is now a mainstay of astrology is “A bomb fails to explode”, that is the caution – whether it explosion or it has been contained is irrelevant. My biological sister I was reunited with after birth once made the callous and indifferent observation and said “I was like a powder keg ready to explode”. I have in the past collected data on prenatal eclipses of both the sun and moon which were corroborating factors including fixed star placements which are solid indicators of someone's predisposal to mental illness. The science is in fact in the cosmobiology of the stars
As a child to protect my vulnerability I would strive for perfectionism at school and was always next in line to the Dux but at home would numb myself with escapist tendencies watching trance-like documentaries on TV on countries torn apart by civil wars. I was obsessed and mesmerised and it became theatre of the mind for me all the while doing what teenagers do being a pretty slim girl, my body being awash with the comforting smell of the astringent witch hazel in an era when girls took obsessive fastidious care of their willowy anorexic appearance. Witch hazel was something always in my house and I applied daily, it was a lingering crisp aroma that stayed with me every day - a comforting smell that propelled me through my less than idyllic youth – its the only smell I can actively recall.
But in the end just as my sister had prophesized I was faced with calling my own bomb squad to take control of a situation for which they only had limited draconian western means. They used drugs as a first line of treatment and would not let you speak your truth about the madness encirling your life. They were in the business of operating a hospital based on a profit margin so pouring down pills was by far the cheapest option constituting a cruel medical regime involving the complete suppression of truth about the context of your life.
It began when became infected with my family's plan for me. I was named Marnie and I believe it was my parents wish that I created a certain life, be a certain person and ignored the plea of my soul to be who I wanted to be and just struggled to walk a straight line and was tyrannized by science fiction. I became fiercely independent from a very young age and became the accounting graduate but Eris to me now is explicitly about an unclear soul purpose and that had to come from having a direct encounter with her. The psychological hex from birth precipitated the events leading to my ultimate fate with my true destiny at 22 years of age. The problem is you can't make sense of it when it happens, it seems like a disproportionate and grave loss, a harsh truth and a yawning gap. But you need to find the golden thread to your innate calling that requires you to be a receptor and absorb the influx of energy to fill the hole. Misfortune always courts us and in retrospect I can be philosophical about this serious problem with a huge degree of detachment and forgiveness
It was through this experience that the role of psychiatric suffrage would be my calling whether I did it well or not. I never did anything drastic or provocative to draw atttention to my cause I just lived a purposeful life with meaning which aroused pernicious curiosity from those in power. I now belonged to the groups of disadvantaged and marginalised who have always existed in society. However the more I tried to dramatise my cause the less people would listen. I made hundreds if not thousands of proclamations and pleas and tried to entreaty my oppressors but it aroused selective deafness in almost everyone I met. Doggedly stating my case was met with immovable resistance. People just switched off while everyone I knew in my community was being similarly being sullied by bigotry daily. I can now pinpoint how this resistance came about - our minds wants to label things and to assign everything a name because that seems to make things safer. Naming something that is foreign that arouses panic in people brings it out of confusion so we know how to deal with it in the most expedient fashion. I in fact was a target and labored under unconscious psychological projections for years. I felt like I was “the woman nobody listened to” – in fact both my parents died in complete oblivion not knowing the extreme nature of social and political structures overriding my life while courting elusive glamours and distractions of this world.
“Cautious, careful people, always casting about to preserve their reputations can never effect a reform” ~ Susan B Anthony
It bears saying that we have been trained from infancy to hide our natural expression. As soon as a baby makes a sound the parent feels obligated to hush them. That is what I learned with psychiatry – you must not be heard, you must be quiet or others will become upset with your presence. It did more damage than it intended to and my mind felt like it had been placed in a structural brace with psychiatric care. Needless to say I learned a lot about people how they act and react under pressure and the collapsing chain of psychiatric hierarchy - we were at the bottom of the socioeconomic pile, being accorded no sense of rightful esteem not even if just because we existed as human beings. We were therefore dismissed with no respect or accord given to human life and treated as if we were a burdensome inconvenience. Their jobs I deduced in many instances were a means to an end as their heart was not genuinely invested their role as a healer but rather they churned us through a soulless conveyor belt with cool and impersonal mercantilism. Psychiatrists stand to profit from the misery caused by societal mob mentality and normalization of evil in a culture that is supposedly considered so sane. It is their cultural opiate. We cannot really speak of a sane society which is a departure from the theories of sociological relativism which says society is normative for as long as it functions smoothly and people are to be seen having a modicum of adjustment to that system. We instead need a more redemptive notion which acknowledges that society is rather bedeviled by certain patholgies and can indeed be crazy-making for the individual concerned. The pernicious effects of the culture of absolute truth enshrined by a doctrinaire diagnostic statistical manual constitutes a betrayal of reason and humanity. The elect psychiatristic "groupthink" that compose this extensive treatment manual of disorders as a status of truth and consensual validation has no bearing on reason or mental health
“As in an explosion, I would erupt with all the wonderful things I saw and understood in this world” ~ Boris Pasternak
Since the explosion before May 1992 and even before that time I was courting and having unlikely liaisons with men in situations of social strife or civil upheaval. My inclinations drew me to the seemingly enchanting world of celebrity “hot house flowers” in an industry that is notoriously known for discord, wretched loathing, human waste and tragedy and vices of all kinds. It catalysed a rapid growth in my existential development through a series of sensitising experiences that caused the rapid and exponential shedding of old skin. I was a musicians muse for many years which polarised society and many of my interests circumnavigated the world of privileged few yet I was portrayed as an unusual woman as a menace or threat to the status quo. I encountered the power of both destruction and renewal, it became addictive yet I needed to purge myself from it to gain clarity over what I actually wanted in my life. Lots of the things I used to hold sacred were flung out the window making these aspirations obsolete. I was now deemed a very unusual woman indeed even though I did nothing unladylike or exhibitionistic by any means. The general public was told I brushed my teeth with hydrogen peroxide, my crystals dripped with mercury, that I routinely ingested borax, was an insidious and evil remote influencer, that I actually slept under a pyramid, filled in my census forms with invisible ink and partook of of bizarre healing practices involving chakra removal! It was not even partially true but they certainly drew a long bow.
I had an encounter with a zen guide from Argentina during the civil uprising and unrest of 2001. I was taken by his vulnerability contained in his passionate dissident poetry about his country. He was a traditional chinese doctor, a sage, he was fearless with bliss bestowing hands that handed out cheap argentinian cigars to his compatriots. I used to say he liked having a slow death every day smoking these cigars. The motto for his homeland was “En Union y liberatal” (In union and freedom) but the country had been plunged into darkness many times over the course of history. He used to speak of his weakness as a man to me and I found that endearing but he never crossed the line. He used to encourage me to learn to prepare meditate in death and from that point I knew a little something about my seamless and boundless state of reality and was being tested to question the sturdy defences I had built around myself.
But it was a lesson in dualism in our culture where we have created this crowning achievement to distance ourselves from the object of our concern to reflect to ponder while curbing blind instinct and superstition. Dualism has brought us culture and science the only problem is it creates mutually exclusive categories such as subject/object, good/bad, cause/effect, past/present/future. Its served as a function to order life in a methodical fashion but is a phenomenological error with distinct ramifications. The prevailing dualism of my era with respect to mental health inclusivity meant that I was depicted as evil through negative debasement by people coping with their with their own style of existential anxiety of the great divide of otherness
Getting back to Eris, its engagement with mental health awareness (Aries) explains the awkward rise in the Mad Pride shocking street marches which struck alarm in the hearts of onlookers trying to make sense of how we could in fact have the right to exist. The social struggle was sprouting up with an added dose of mars reminiscent of the martian energy of WW2, the atomic bomb and the cold war in the social struggle for equality with the Eris-Aries cycle. New planets connect with new ideas and new social forces. We are now living in an era that has to accommodate the mentally ill as they are now dispersed through the community. I find myself in a broader working class community that is in itself existing close to the bone - that derides the very attainment of any achievement and fame and the problems of disaffected poverty that are ultimately elevated to assert self-merit in a hostile winner/loser society. To be seen as actively engaged in productive activities you are seen to be “opinionated” to be “too lofty or “highbrow while there is a shameless celebration of willfull ghetto mentality of law-of-the-jungle ethos. Social agreements everywhere are being broken down as individual aggressiveness becomes more culturally accepted over propriety. Militancy, street fighting, cosmic superstition, hocus-pocus, mystification of the masses and a pulling away from evidenced based on fact vs. fiction is now the order of the new day. Its psychotic by design but the public has bypassed their better judgement to immerse themselves in the new lie of the land
The muse hides in many guises and reveals herself in improbable places. I've had dalliances with political figures maybe because my life had been sufficiently anthropologised from all the diverse and unusual folk I used to encounter. The positive development was I held domain with powerful men through shifts in the modality of thinking. It may have been about global healing and social justice surrounding peoples of the world through the analogous dipping into a chalice well as Jean Houston would describe it rather than using that of using the blade. I felt I could share an inner ecology of my own growth and offer up something of hope. I was indeed living with the universe within me as many would say and felt deeply honored to share my worlds with these people. It was through my celebration of life and the joy of living that solutions to vexing issues on an interpersonal and social level were made evident and made manifest. I metaphorically danced my way into unearthing those type of existential solutions for my problems and that of those whose lives I touched.
What does all this mean for the Persian witch hazel tree? Last week the astral elements were unsettled. Eris had conjoined uranus. It an instant a noisy truck pulled up outside my sleepy abode and there were rough men with menacing voices outside. I knew Eris had again returned putting a spoke in the wheel. They were jeering and there was a cachaphony of coarse laughter I wondered if they were mocking or cursing me! It began to stir my emotions evoking repressed memories within the depths of my being. It inflamed my psyche and before I knew it something deep was being activated. I was literally overtaken. It was raw and disturbing and I was at a loss as to how to grapple with my vulnerability to the emotional pain and the re-opening of an old wound that I had thought had once been sealed.
It was a spiritual emergency something crawling inside me and erupting into my psycho-physical state of being but how you resolved it was another question. As a virgo you're in the business of fixing things, not being lulled into the original chaos all over again. I had sought refuge in my paternalistic gurus to allay my pain in the past but one by one they had left me disappointed. I had abandoned the guru-disciple relationship out of sheer betrayal from my teachers. I was re-entering a mini spiralling underworld with its attendant instability and starkness and NO-ONE was there.
I was sufficiently aware of having resolved my first psychiatric episode all those years ago but I was not going mad I just had to accept I was in a state of vulnerability. It was a tall order for me to just comply but I had to allow myself to be in a state of beingness. I feared this churning turbulence yet I wondered what this little tree they were planting outside was and despite my intense apprehensions forced myself to bravely go outside no matter what. Was I going stark crazy? NO! Something beyond what is seen and experienced normally was drawing my attention. I knew instinctively that the spirit world talks through nature from the great beyond...and that “beyondness” becomes more clear and more apparent through signs & omens like the grasping of a lustrous magpie feather. It was the divine trying to get my attention through things arising in the natural world. Angels were near.
I could not control and predict what was going to occur I yelled and beckoned to the workmen at the other end of the street “What IS this tree?” They stood there frozen and paralysed – all of them. I was drawn to this tree yet was confounded by it but could not fathom why. The air was filled with palpable eeriness. They were in fact stunned and very terrified of me – a woman screaming about an innocous plant on the naturestrip planted by the local council. They gave me walked over and handed me a crimson colored paper label off the tree for reference which said “Persian Witch Hazel” (latin: Parrotia Persica) I laughed nervously with the man and he said that there's a few witches around these parts and then looked at me even though I was not a witch, scanned my face and thought I was no threat to him and blithely walked away.
I could have written it off as a bizarre oddity or that stumbling across this plant was the physical essence of some symbolic meaning - a botanical embodiment of an intrinsic quality presented for my healing. I realised I was grasping at straws but thought it was ironic that this plant and its name lent itself to such gratuitous characterisations under strange and unsettling circumstances. Was it the physical manifestation of something to do with finding inner release from the urgency of the hour? I wondered...I sought out the opinion of my facebook friend the Morrigan, a pagan elder. It was dislodging something in me emotionally which called for some kind of rational explanation and resolution. Morrigan's followers understand how hard it is to be the pure containment vessel for these energies. She told me to explore druidry and the weaving of spirit and the sacred back into our relationship with nature. I realised after reading the internet I had and for the first time felt a real intimate connection with that of a tree. Its called Viridis Genii (the spirit of the green), acquiring natures secrets through direct revelation and gnosis.
I realised a sudden change in perception that I needed no more churches and temples but to let nature be my cathedral. I was tired of all the useless mantras and remedies, fake rudraksha, golden colored yantras and spiritual materialism. I had walked away in disgust leaving nothing to fill its place. I was existing in a timeless spiritual vaccuum all the while warning the remaining devotees of how they were scammed. I had given up on organised religion I had escaped the disappointing control mechanisms. My last guru sat there pedestal-like surrounded by flowers in his refinery and calculably ripping off bankrupts whom were facing jail. He had offered a pilthy mantra after a long convoluted presentation in an opulent fully paid for reception center in south east Asian hotel.
That day the Persian Witch Hazel was planted was a destiny call to examine more than which met the eye. It was my introductory lesson in green gnosis and what nature could provide from shamanic plant practices to get me to think differently about myself and my identity. I no longer knew what to do and did not know how to go further...so I had to let a little plant tell me and whisper to my ear to point the way through the cleft and the abyss. The Persian Witch Hazel Tree was a step of change, transformation and healing for all my woes
I always recognised the correspondence between the macrocosm of nature and the microcosm of human life. I knew that by uniting ourselves with astrology you come to know the spiritual laws in the form of nature. Eris' reentry into the fray heightened all my sensing faculties - they became vitalized and pulsing with aliveness like my lungs had been pumped with Alpine air. I had a stark but gripping Goethean-like epiphany that I could begin to ominously perceive the soulfulness of nature just like had with the stars and planets. By seeing myself as occuying a part in the whole I could find unifying principles in a single tree and then draw conclusions from it as being an archetypal energy. The “doctrine of signatures” is such that there is an understanding there is a correspondence between outer forms and the inner qualities. We are all aspects of the undivided whole and each finds its working action within each of us.
I began researching the doctrine of signatures of the Persian Witch Hazel Tree, having been stamped with legible characteristics via complementary association. The idea that the plant looks like a disease, organ or person it will heal both physically and spiritually . It is a relatively uncommon tree and less familiar in nurseries. It a big imposing yet magnificent pyramid shaped ornamental tree that has zig zag and crooked forked branches reaching out like bony gnarled hands to carry as many beams of sunlight as possible. The tree is often referred to ironwood and its wood is harvested for cabinetmaking, decorative work, telephone poles and tools like hammers in Iran. If you try to bend the branches it is so discernably strong it will not break.
Appearance, shape color and habitat imply the relationship. One of its most valued characteristics is its autumnal foliage with a broad range of colors from maroon to crimson to scarlet to gold all existing simultaneously. Sound can provide a signature, an attribute of conventional witch hazel is when the seed pods mature they release the seeds with a loud memorable popping or snapping sound and shoot them at great distance which accounts for its unusualness and ideosyncratic virtues.
The rosy red colored flowers of the Persian Witch Hazel variety which emerge in the dead of winter look like the personification long drooping lashing tongues It says to me to believe in having steadiness to welcome the fact that there is new beginnings and to sing a new song and create a new life, imparting a seed of hope and a light in the dark.
Persian Witch Hazel occupies barren desert areas and like typical witch hazel it would suggest it can help cleanse and reduce anything that inflames including soothing vexatious situations. The colors are often keys to the association of plants with the planets. It's magical lore conjures it as a tree of protection and a very fearful de-hexing tree in native spirituality
Brown red astringence belong to cold malefic saturn from an astrodynamic perspective. In fact my astrological chart is ruled by saturn, the great teacher, the setting of limitations, the restrictor and constrictor the codifying of rules laws and boundaries. Saturns energy is considered cold and dry, astringent and bitter, inward drawing. Its an unlucky planet from an astrological point of view and provides the best antidote when things are hot and bothered, loose or swollen, flowing or uncontrolled, itchy and scratchy and painful.
I have researched the flower essence of the typical witch hazel flower and its message is for those who sacrifice themselves in living up to the expectations of others the willing horses who are constantly trying to please whoever. Its for those who relenentlessly drive themselves when a new evaluation is all that is necessary beyond parental approval and later conditioned responses to stop giving yourself a hard time . It opens a direct conduit to higher energies and acts like an inner light, a warm glow that uplifts the spirit and a strong promise in cases of extreme doubt and anxiety.
In the deep emblemmatic peace of the stars and the trees the only hope we have for protecting the sanity of society is through relating to people in a loving way that is founded in brotherliness and not through that blood, war-lording and strife. A society that fosters the transcendent nature of man by encouraging the the faculties of creation rather than destroying and by which people come to uniquely identify themselves through their own unique gifts and not through the insidious processes of normalisation and conformity. Society has veered off-course and we need something from higher intuitive vantage points to steer our ships in self knowledge through a deep and abiding knowledge of ourselves and our place in the world. It is through this ignorance that we experience a plethora of worldly problems and insanities from those whom have created a distorted vision of themselves within complex scenarios that erupt in the world. It is only through self knowledge and bringing into awareness the unconscious that contribute to the collective course we are all on. We must be like a tree and reach for the heavens.
“ A grateful heart is a happy heart, I'm glad at what I have, that's an easy way to start!”
Brother David Steindl-Rast is a Benedictine monk who celebrated his 90th birthday last year. He produced an audio program called The Grateful Heart on how we can feel gratitude in every moment because everything – our life, our breath, the sky, eachother – has been given to us. Brother David teaches that the recognition that our entire life is a gift and is the key to happiness and we need not wait to feel happy in order to be grateful. We need to attune to gratitude even when the mind is feeling lousy and disenchanted even when we are not in the mood to raise our spirits & muster up feeling grateful in unwelcome circumstances.
As a practice, Brother David recommends a three-step process for living with a grateful heart: STOP and become present and aware and receptive. LOOK and notice and observe and have a direct experience of the moment. Go and take action and do something with the awareness of gratefulness that has emerged in your experience. It is a clear-cut, straight forward and unadorned philosophy.
The notion of STOP LOOK GO is pure simplicity in principle but if you immerse yourself with the process you can discern more beauty and splendour that surrounds your life and then go into a kinder, gentler and more lovingly disposed state of being. If we were to fast forward to the end of our lives, God may propose us with the ultimate question of our sojourn on Earth: “So how was heaven?” In the gift that is our life we tend to have an insular and skewed vision that consumes us with pain and resolving ongoing problems, unable to see the natural and permeating beauty and allure everywhere. Cultivation of this practice guarantees more intrinsic states of happiness.
We find it almost impossible to let go of the insignificant tiny things that preoccupy our thoughts. We need to embrace a larger perspective of where we are in the universe and recognise that these little annoyances are given more attention than they deserve. That these aren't actually that important in the scheme of things and prevent us from total being in the NOW. Its a reminder to focus more exclusively on those things that uplift and brighten the heart and soul as we endeavour to shift the weight created by the pain, frustration and dissatisfaction we experience in the day-to-day. Being governed by the gentle and kindly advice to STOP LOOK GO helps tremendously to reframe many difficult and tangling situations.
You enter a state of being that is happy, cheery and jubilant rather than being swept away by the immediacies that are brought to bear on your current situation. Your scope begins to expand and you begin to train your mind to be less fixated over what is missing or flawed in any situation. By dedicating your life doing this practice on a persistent basis over time will overcome any obstacle or disincentive to the process. You will then learn to drink in life's wonderous joys and failing to do it will eventually begin to ultimately seem counter-intuitive.
In modern society people are too obsessed over “doing” and not “being” – we have become socialized to living in a fast paced world of having to be somewhere that we neglect to stop and literally smell the roses. By the time you retire many people have commented that “its ok to just be” for a change. Life without the pleasures of enjoyment are rather bleak but by engaging in the enterprise of STOP LOOK GO life can become a kind of paradise in the making. Patience is the essence of the process in this rich and powerful message. We need to constantly remind ourself through daily habit of this poignant simple and pure teaching to STOP LOOK GO.
Even though brother David is a monk, STOP LOOK GO is totally unrelated to religious principles yet echoes through holy catholic church orthodoxy, zen meditation and even Islam. It is an outcropping of Jen-Luc Marion's French post-modern patristic and mystic philosophy and Martin Heidegger's German philosophy and nermeneutics. Heidegger proposed that this “givenness” existing on all planes of reality is known as “gegebenheit” which alludes to being in the world or what is to say our perceptions of any given moment . STOP LOOK GO is used in the form of a secularist notion rather than a uniform religious belief system. It can be used to shape our human potential and expand existing range of experiences apart from just simply radiating more happiness.
The only way to achieve everlasting fulfilment is to face the simple truth of life that everything that exists is an expression of creator energy. It exists for us to learn to cultivate a more receptive state of being that enables us to witness more of life even if seems to exist on subtle less noticeable levels. Its existentialism 101 where consciousness meets the all levels of awareness - mental, physical and spiritual.
Its very easy to get lulled into cynicism, the mind is conditioned to operate on the basis of a negative outlook given the fact there is so much that causes pain and injustice in the world. But all we have is really is the now eternal moment which can be be either given over to “chaos”, by default or freed to be dressed up as a very pleasant and authentic “ordering” of reality. Even if you have been a cynic and was indoctrinated to believe that all of life was a curse...that this was the only absolute nature of the world - one of harshness and toil.
If your life has been insufferable go outside and look up and say thank-you and begin to feel the aliveness that comes from bearing witness to the tingling sensations of observing joy from now and into the next years of your life. It requires no tenacious, heroic or willed mindset - its a long term practice. We can all strive to do better by recovering our essence of curiosity about the world, seizing the day and expanding our existing reaches and perspectives. Gratefulness has a immense effect on your neurology. How we think can shape our outlook and significant improve our wellbeing considerably. In a book called “Thanks” based on a study by Eammons and McCullough they devised a 10 week research study that determined that gratitude can in fact increase your happiness “set-point”
In a world where common sense is becoming rare, we don't need to be disenfranchised and bitter seekers of the truth – we have options about the ways and means that we meet life head-on. We should therefore be motivated to make it more convivial and joyful by cultivating a grateful mind-set. Many times we look at other peoples lives with some kind of envy and longing but we need to understand we have our own reasons to be happy. By participating in a little deep reflection and soul searching we will soon discern that our life is uniquely ours with its own salient features and carpe diem that offer immeasurable consolation. Gratitude is rooted in the senses and our senses are always approaching what brings us enjoyment.
To adhere to the practice requires daily ongoing consistency. To be able to persist we need to remind ourselves what our motivations are for engaging in this process in the first instance and remind us when we fall short to do what is required to get back on our horse. Gratitude can be cultivated by almost anyone in life and being happy involves a recognition that you have the ability to enjoy things in life no matter how simple it may be. In reality we were born empty-handed and when you die you will be empty-handed so the inbetweens serve as the inherent gift. We are given so much every day and we require a more purposeful and deliberate act of seeking things to be grateful for until it becomes a natural state of being.
“Grace is the free undeserved, unearned and unmerited favor of God and God's gift to everyone.”
Happiness stems from mastery and the source of all such happiness is opportunity. The opportunity is provided each passing second. To recognise this gives sufficient motivation to settle the mind to be open and be in a state of receiving. In a world where people want and crave misery its much cheaper easier to sink into negative states than to maintain an engagement with what life is potentially offering you from a expanded state of plenty. Not only that when you are grateful you want others to be as equally as empowered and not exhibiting callousness and iniquity towards the less fortunate but a feeling of a debt you owe to others from your state of good fortune.
Our moods are precarious things and Shopenhauer a German philosophical pessimist said for the most part people are annoyed by life to varying degrees even though there may be unequal disparities in luck and misery. His work captured the notion of malignant metaphysical will and went on to say “Every man takes the limits of his own field of vision for the limits of the world” In essence we are not invulnerable to insult, injury and death. There exists one thing with certitude and that is our lives are finite and our ultimate demise is something we all must face. You can't tacitly presume you will live indefinitely. At the end of life we have all have an epiphany that will focus on all the time we wasted focussing on excessive ruminating and pensiveness in our emotional life - “If only I had done this”. The same thought repeated thousands of times over your life when it could have been better spent taking life less for granted and focussing on the inherent good.
This wake-up call causes us to revision our world view as time is marching on at a rapid pace. Your life is sacred and the reality of your life is NOW as Eckhart Tolle says no matter how much you need to invest in preparing for the future and mitigating against risks – all that precious time is being expended. It requires urgent corrective action to avoid this unconscionable amount of time devoted to this misuse of human energy. STOP LOOK GO is a finely calibrated way of satisfying this longing for living in a better state of NOW. The line between timeless wisdom and banality in this world is hard to find, but the STOP LOOK GO principle achieves a spontaneous state of gratitude with almost guaranteed sureness in any given moment where witnessing arises. Its not to say we want more pleasure or an easy passage through life, much of life realistically always entails struggle but borne of this is many a great thing and many of us have been able to put struggle in its proper perspective, make something of it and even enjoy the struggle itself.
“The past is always arising in the present and the future is another thought arising now. We spend most of our lives repudiating it, fleeing it” ~ Sam Harris, philosophical atheist and neuroscientist.
This change in attitude and attentiveness can be further explained by the fact that the brain's capacity to see is generally very limited. In any given time our snapshot view of the world only absorbs a limited amount of information and data so introspection and rumination can only offer a very poor and restrictive view of the world. How dissatisfied in the present do you have to be to create a satisfying future, how unhappy do you needlessly have to be? If you had the chance to avoid missing out on your life would you accept the invitation to avoid the discursive thought that perpetuates the sorrow, self doubt, anxiety and fear? Thinking is useful but being perpetually lost in thoughts that yield nothing but suffering and woe. Are you going to be held hostage to the next thought? The antidote that is compatible with reason is to be found HERE:
STOP LOOK GO!
“Chaos - A choosing between those things at provide safety and stability and a tibetan tradition called moving toward the sharp point – confronting our growth edge and challenging defences"
Life is pure potentiality if you can welcome it with open arms. It involves seeing beyond your own limits and tapping into a perspective which you are yet to understand or even contemplate. Opportunities are only ever borne out of stagnancy when life throws you the monkey's wrench and it manifests as being trapped in an invidious state of humdrum or normalcy. You can desperately yearn for something more that excites you but the way things have been thus far, the status quo and everything you have come to know doesn't lend itself to anything new
By nature our egos prefer safety but there also exists an unconscious drive to be free of the imposed restrictions in our lives. The blocked, thwarted dead-ends which we find ourselves in, the stale outworn and inhospitable intermediary state is really just an illusion that hoodwinks us into believing this is the only way things should be. Poised for the kind of change where we are accustomed to resort to fallback strategies along our path we are actually at a juncture to receive something from the imminent future to create a new present.
The paltry belief systems that have got us thus far and served us well up until this point makes for a constricting hold over our prospects. The problem solving, fixing, explaining and taking sides with blame with both winners and losers is like a mouse trapped in a perpetual wheel. We have no sense of where we are going or how to get there but the dilemma of repeating cycles can only lead to one place – a place of sacred transmutation.
When monumental shifts are required it involves an entirely different approach – a new way of seeing, thinking, being and doing. But in a state of suspension all transmutation takes place here in the emptiness, a stark designation that has no resolution for the uncomfortable void. A place where we feel our feathers have been completely ruffled by the uncomfortable ambiguity and dealing with the chaos and unknown. Chaos dictates that the solution to the problem must be higher than the situation that created it in the first instance. We can't rely on old and inadequate zero hour solutions to our predicament, so it catalyzes an upgrade to a more freer, open and transcendent state of being.
We naturally fear chaos but its an unlikely faclitator of change that catapults us onto a new destiny timeline. The beauty of chaos is we can be born into something beyond anything we have known or yet thought within the realms of possibility. Our feeble frantic attempts to try and patch up this urgent situation will fall terribly short of producing enduring ideas to spark the real vision ahead.
We tend to nurse a deep mistrust of what the future portends but really what is required is a good measure of surety and faith and a receptivity to new ideas. Its through the deconstruction of our normative values, cutting ourself adrift from olds ways of being and acknowledging their timely cessation we can regrasp what is new.
Being sandwiched between the familiar and the completely unknown involves implicit trust in the cosmos and abiding in this state with an open acknowledgement of seeing a dead belief system being seen for what it is – superfluous and extraneous leit motif that needs to be jettisoned. In the vaccuum we see our defences and certitudes crumbling – we are caught between worlds as the door begins to close on an old chapter of our life, sparking a spontaneous allegience with a new and more conscious life.
"We are so much more than we know. and... is a new way of feeling, being and creating. It's where evolution is inviting us to go"
~ "Anamika", psychotherapist and metaphysics teacher
It feels abortive on many levels yet there is no turning back but we must be free to live a more conscious life and be brave enough not to be swept in the undertow. This constitutes a crucial and natural point of growth where we can experience renewal on all levels. We are stuck in a place of waiting. Waiting is normal and natural but we tend to resist it with all our might as we crave movement and engagement with life.
Its the time between wounding and healing and finding your place along the journey as a spiritual adult. This does not mean you will be unflappable but to instead cultivate patience, hope, perseverence and a humility in the face of seemingly unshifting dynamics. We then bear witness to our defences and certitudes crumbling while the temptation is to possibly back-peddle when the future always awaits us. The native peoples of the world call it “crazy time” as it ruptures and purges our soul, calling to action a response out of our periphery beyond recycling our past – it is a destructive process, its objectionable and initially serves as a great blow to the ego – but something within us must perish.
Its choosing between staying stuck in the shackles of normalcy and old-fashioned solutions to fix the lost, confused, unsure, unclear, perplexed, disorientated and bewildered you achieve nothing. What is required is to entertain the realm of uncertainty where you must exist in a state of limbo with all the vexatious elements and with this heavy cloud of unknowing. We can then leave the tried and true which no longer works and exit this place of constraint and limitation and draw on new answers and possibilities.
By tempering our response and willfully submitting to chaos out emerges a fresh territory and a new manner of being which the mind could not readily conceive of with our finite selves and linearity of thought. Its a point of intersection between reckoning and exalted epiphany. Its not about finding God through the power of sheer will alone but the will of God that actually alters your everyday mind. You are then changed, not from a place of knowing or assuredness but an openness beyond anything we have known, thought, felt understood, called reality. In this space Neitszche said “God is dead” or at least the old God is dead and the restraint that held you back is no longer there.
It takes deep surrender, not as an act of passivity or weakness but an emergent receptive quality that is yielding to the natural wonders of the world. By relinquishing our need comprehend it and fathom it with our minds or be in control it takes a tremendous amount of courage as the old guard collapses and to be in a space of allowing that grants permission for an enlargening effect on your consciousness. To acknowledge that sometimes we have to wait and hold onto your hat demonstrates a humility at a downtime interval while fully immersed and standing in your pain.
To allow our prevailing world view to totally collapse and have greater clarity about where our limitations and shortcomings are and to honor this difficult time of passage as one of benevolence through which a new schematic arises. We can then re-enter the wonderfully expansive and nurturing waters of abundant life once again to re-create ourselves as more evolved and individuated people.
Its these junctures in life that teach us where to let go and allow our lives to be revolutionised from both within and without. Its just about allowing this space to exist despite our frantic and haphazard endeavours to set it right and fall back on our default mechanisms. The processing can be painful and annihilating but what is required is an assimilation of more facets of ourselves coming from a place that is beyond our scope of reasoning. The crucible stirs our complexes on a deep visceral level but the knack is learning how to live with the inherent tension of existing in tandem with a world between worlds.
All this occurring as the hand of fate is birthing something more appreciable as the universe keeps expanding. Its this stimulus that serves to shake up the stagnancy and in doing so to do a clearing out an unblocking of the pipe so to speak of emotional, verbal and physical limitations. The life is and its contents of waste must be purged for it to run clear again. This heralds a new sense of being and doing, a refinement through the action of sensitizing experiences that make us exercise a new part of our nature that spontaneously arises and releases us from the hopelessness, the way things have customarily been and ultimately from he void which we find ourselves in.
The knee-jerk responses of self reproach, the blame, the anger, the indignation are always our first reactions to crisis but these reference points also get disassembled and melt away after our ship has come to the shore to bless us with greater boons and entitlements. Its like Jesus in the wilderness or even better the 3 days after the crucifixion, Siddhartha under a tree and St John of the Cross' dark night of the soul. The lesson is these experiences are illuminating a new path beyond yourself and you discover who you are anew.
Its very easy to regress, stagnate and resist as we naturally fear the future, the past seems so comfortable, predictable and habituating, we don't have sufficient faith in surrendering to the providence the future is intrinsically endowed with. In essence its beyond something we can “think” or philosophise about or make right – the ego is always trying to assert itself and harness reality but must take a back seat. The more semi-enlightened states cannot be arrived via convoluted thinking.
The situation actually requires us to be in a state of passivity, receptivity and a state of yin if you like to draw from Taoist thought. Non-action. To nurture and allow the flowering of potentiality of what is yet to become within us. It is in this dormant state of unknowing and hat we have allreadty cast an invitation to the universe which will be answered in ways that go beyond concepts and ideas. Thus transfiguring or very being and make us more of who we have been. It welcomes the transformational power to remake our souls, change the very foundation of our very lives and totally reinvigorate us from the ground up.
Its this new energy that gives us the type of original paradigm shift which is the criterion we need to open to greater possibility and the promised lands. If you are floating in this liminal space trust that the answer will come. You will emerge feeling better and experience change on a dramatic level that lends you to trust in cosmic flow and a tolerance of ambiguity. In the superficial age of “certainty” with sound bytes, ideological and political stances and all manner of declarations ambiguity is anomalous.
This process is not popular in today's culture of distractions and fleeing from the confrontations with our inner selves. But it will liberate you from feeling immobilized and regressive and the generalised numbness that accompanies this. It will serve to animate your very life and the point of confluence will fade into another poignant scene in the rear view mirror of life. According to human behaviouralist, Maslow: belonging is a primal need and you will always be led on an instinctual level to create a new life from the one you have outworn. Nature abhores a vaccuum is the old adage so be imbue your life with contentment and dignity despite the tension. Your unshakable faith that will impel your forward momentum and serve you into the future and worlds beyond
Since antiquity from the noble bonds between Greek heroes, Russian aristocracy or poets evokes a type of genuine enduring friendship that transcends all time and space. It was assumed that friendship had an ethical filia of mutual interest of civic relationship. Historically since the Christian monastic era and cathedral schools friendships were spiritualised and devoted to charitable good works and the concept of what may be termed “agape” and during romanticism a strong visceral inclination for friendships based on feeling and emotive sentiments.
These have been the etiquettes for friendship based upon benevolence and recipricosity, virtues extolled by the philosopher Aristotle whose musings on friendship saw them as being virtuous dyads based on ethical values, the furtherance of human potentiality and where the welfare of social interest was preserved. These are the earliest forms of friendship which were bonds that were unified on the plausible basis that enabled people they cared about to live lives of purpose, courage and creativity.
Nowadays friendship is based on a rather loose hypothesis evolving largely from our commercialised western culture over which the overarching emphasis is on the notion of “I” and not “We”. It translates into largely the preoccupation of self interest above all else and the sense of expediency or utilitarian value abounding across friendship in modern times.
We live in a narcissistic society which is present in all our transactions and exchanges. It is heavily emphasized our insincere valuation of people as objects to either extract something from or to promote enjoyment or pleasure. It is something that abounds in our human relations and people are assessed according to their ability to be exploited or used. The great supermarket of friendship that it has become where your desirability as a friend is assessed according utilitarian informalities and simulated complicity like a modern rudimentary business relationship.
What was once revered in classical times as friendship has devolved into a malaise of unclear and socially unacknowledged criteria for what makes a true friend. Our definitions of what makes a friend in today's culture is very thin. It is customary to entertain friendships with those whom we typically feel good around but possibly never to go further to bring into question the real reason why people come together. They are usually under the dubious mantle of utilitarian individualism and its concomitant pleasure as auxillaries. The lubricant for friendship today is the pursuit of happiness, an urgent call for conviviality and feel-good moments to ameliorate the sense of unease and lack of adjustment in todays faced pace world.
Friendship as a moral commitment in today's culture is largely extinct and being alerted to a friend that deserts you in a time of need is the price we pay for a society obsessed with self promotion and indulgence every kind of largesse existing today. Being let down by someone like this brings into question what kinds of friendships we have been entertaining and is possibly worse than having no friend at all. How your friends respond in a time of trouble will delineate whether they will stay loyal to you and dig their heels in for both the good and the bad. Once the motive for friendship has been revealed it will drop like a leaf off a tree and it cannot go back to what it used to be.
Friendship was once a moral axiom through which the bonds of association were eternal and lasting and did not dissolve under trying conditions. A good friendship according to Aristotle takes place only between good men and not for what can be extracted on an appreciable level but for which true love exists between people and “not incidental qualities”.
The kind philosophical overview of today demonstrates that our value systems have been largely compromised and there are so many consciously unacknowledged grey areas having gone under a materialistic attrition through previously unheard of no-go zones. Friendship has now been reduced to an artifact and subsumed via the infantile marketplace and terminal narcissism - its possibly the only constant in a world of uncertainty and can be dispensed with at whim without self reflection or a speck of sentimentality.
Neoliberalism on a sociological level has reduced the power, depth and dimensions of friendship to a contemporary object of expedience to the detriment of the fabric of society. Friendship is seen only in isolation with no significance, null-effect or impinging value to the larger phenomenal wellbeing and regulation of societies. It is viewed as largely being divorced from the system being reduced to a item in singularity with no conceding value. Our view of friendship is myopic detached from abstract realities and does not take into account the intersection of friendship with the establishment of firmly just and unshakeable societies as its rubric.
There are no enshrined values such as esteeming friendship as an enduring investment in social capital under which families and communities continue to exist and thrive. If they are they are very rare indeed while the edifice of society washes away through the lack of commitment to something greater than ourselves than beyond our egoistic whims. This is really confronting the obvious when nobody is willing to go beyond their distinct satiable drives to something more purposeful, more abstract and counterfactual.
The way we conduct friendship is largely for the notable success and happiness of ourselves with no obligatory commitment to the welfare of a friend or to the larger whole of society. It is impersonal, rapacious and calculable under the compelling index of how we can profit from interractions with simulated connection, human warmth and complicity. Nobody can really be a friend or accept or love eachother once trust is won. In todays world with the advent of social media and consumer commerce bonds are formed instantaneously with little or no question about who we are inviting into our lives. In a world where everything is immediate and about convenience our current friendship model is at its lowest form - just shake and stir and don't worry about the future is the prevailing motto. Prudent decisions about friendship and their ramifications are ill-considered.
In classical times friendship was based on virtue - it involved recognition of a person's wellbeing and how they would ignite their infinite potentials as a human being. It engendered a clear recognition of eachothers excellence and personal merits and a willingness to be of altruistic value in their life. The emotions of care concern and compassion were the order of the day. A friendship that served as a guiding light that allowed one to gravitate on the proper course in life through tangibly keen expressions of interest.
Thus experiencing the kind of interpersonal exchange that is the most unwittingly beautiful in its essence, spontinaeity and candour. It is for this reason that virtue maintains and preserves genuine friendship and this alone. Where there are grey areas in life and no distinct clear cut values about what is clear and what is not, friendship also falls prey to this lack of talent when it comes to friendship. This cleaving without the desire for any advantage is what cultivates the blossoming of authentic relationships.
We are perishable, life is transient and in the end all that we would have liked to have held dear to our hearts is true connection. Therefore the greatest of all things is friendship. Many people delay the inevitable and think of themselves as being death-less in a way and fill their lives with distractions entertainment and material pleasures. Its a way to allay the unconscious finite nature of their lives. “You only live once” is the catch-cry and its almost expected nowadays to live outside the ordinary as if something is owed to you as if your very life depended upon living for the day.
These competitive lifestyle notions reinforce social expectations when it comes to how we go about entertaining people in our largely prejorative class-based systems. This of course has nothing to do with true fellowship but keeping up a facade and fulfilling artificial expectations. It only leads to hunger for more and more to the exclusion of those who cannot participate economically on a social level.
Once you are relengated to the bottom strata of society you are assessed as having no social or economic value and are ignored and sidelined. The only problem is no-body is immune and people from well-heeled societies can easily slip through the cracks in an instant. All it takes is an illness, a job layoff or a divorce or economic crisis. Therefore all life should be intrinsically valued We ought to value people because they are BORN not due to ascribing some anxiety about their worthiness as a human being.
The same can be said about instrumentality the means of exacting something from someone as an agenda to get essential necessities met via the deceiving guise of “friendship”. This kind of friendship is tokenistic at best and again reflects the market relationship of exchange where there was once genuine altruism transformed to one of utility. It is not a civic relationship but one of co-dependency and dysfunctionalism that impairs the participants ability to freely act on their own behalf and have a sense of autonomy, self direction and liberty.
The degradation of friendship in modern society means that any behaviour can be permissable and may very well despise the person we extract things from and engage in conduct that is consistent with such a lowly condition. Because the relationship is essential to mutual interest their behaviours go unchecked and nobody is willing to have a tete-a-tete to bring to account that persons propensities for destructive behaviour thus further abandoning them to every conceivable type of human prolifigacy and miscreation.
When survival is based on a paleo version of friendship where its essential for both the physical and psychological health of the individual the people involved may engage in ongoing censorship about their human inadequacies because their need for human contact is so strong that they fear losing people unless they show a brave face. It has nothing to do with human dignity but fear and tension of being left alone swimming shark infested waters and losing all their support networks which are only benevolent to the extent of the changing winds.
The atomizing effects of ill-health restrict the selection of relationships based on choice alone so it is like a seagull feeding from breadcrumbs from the hand of a sailor and we may well be lumbered with people with whom we harbor antipathy and feel duly inconvenienced by. Its an undesirable situation but often reasoned as being something better than nothing at all.
Friendships are now thinner than ever – there is little depth and quality to them and in todays culture and people have little time to invest in friendship unless it serves as a vehicle for joint conspicuous consumption in a market democracy that says you must have in order “to be”. We are the veritable Kath&Kim's of this world going arm in arm to Fountain Gate Shopping complex as the only level of closeness and engagement we have is about defining ourselves by what we don't have.
Once you experience a certain level of prosperity however connection will begin to take precedence over anything you once had. You cannot put a price on solidarity and friendship when it comes to your innate growth and unveiling of whom you wish to be on an existential level and where you feel you can have glorious epiphanies that go beyond your existing state of awareness. The dynamic treasures of sharing, the closeness over a make-shift meal, the priceless discussions, all the care and concern not from frivolous fancy but pure motives will be permanently etched in your mind forever.
We know this type of goodwill in society is hard to come by for people like us. You will always remember a good friend in your heart of hearts. If you have had one like these like I had you are very blessed and fortunate indeed and you will want to carry on their benevolent legacy to those with whom have earned your loyalty and trust into the future to nurture those you hold dear.
The mileau of the psychiatric community can be felt as if you are stuck via socializing agents, conditioning and the existing restrictive capacity of your health. It can be a limiting factor when trying to give leverage to your given reality. It can lead all too often to resignation and the giving up on any kind of dream. The psychiatric culture unfortunately tends to breed passivity fostered by a solicitious nannying state which does not require anything of the us other than to be consigned to self-limiting situations. There are no expectations placed on the psychiatric patient other than to accept the mantle of being sick. This creates a restricted personal agency in the world when we should be the authors of their own lives. There is no incentive to act as there are in fact intrinsic rewards and payoffs in playing the “sick role”. They do not encourage any kind of facets of ones abilities that further the extension of growth and the exploration new realities and possibility.
We can remain in a situation of treading water, placing too much emphasis on a dry safety-net of psychiatric care while existing in a state of passivity and inaction. By learning to engage our self autonomy and degree of self responsibility growth can be a natural state of being and the order of the new day – a willingness to adapt, take risks without even anticipating the consequences rather than the familiarity of non-impetus. We can elect to accept an invitation to our self transformation or we can sever ourselves from this fundamental truth. Its our choice to live in entropy and hinged to beleagured and restructive situations and the wretchedness of life.
Self reliance and responsibility is rarely encouraged as the human pathologies of frustration, limitation and suffering are the only attributes assigned to a patient. These are the only defining self concepts and identification one can rightfully have . It is in that sense that we can deviate from social expectations of even having to take rightful ownership of our lives.
I feel people need to welcome the prospect of growth and not succumb to assuming the identity of being just a "patient" or a psychiatric survivor. It need not define somebody or de-limit them on subtle levels of classification. The thought of embarking on any new is often filled with self doubt, self sabotage and even a lack of willingness to enquire. It all seems as if it is a fait acompli and it conjures up impossible situations where an obligation to act seems out of the question and that is beyond our very capacities and reserves.
We need not indulge ourselves in our suffering and use it as our excuse or tribal wound and act as if we are blighted by the fog that veils our true self. Choice always exits within a larger scale and we don't have to be victims of our medical pathology. The veiled truth is that reality bestows many things only if we are willing to act. We have not drawn the short straw. The axiom that we can go beyond this grotesque handicap is a ever ready possibility as all things come to you once you change your inner dialogue. Then your outer world will reflect this reality.
We need to begin taking responsibility today not tomorrow not ever and begin enlarging our scope of endeavour beyond the purview of docility. Our sense of self demands of us that we expand with small steps that have immediate payoffs rather than strident attempts to dramatically overhaul our very lives. Through the process of passivity granted to us through society via health bankruptcy and lack of expectations it can create a state of devolving and disengagement from life. We relinquish our very lives by which we perceive the hand of fate pitted against us in the most blighting of ways. Hopes and dreams can easily fall by the wayside as our lives take on a drab pallour as a result of the prevailing wind.
It is an easy option then to abide in a state of mediocrity, feeling comfortable in non-action and familiarity rather than answering our own unique and beckoning call. Through this inner distortion we ignore the existing power within us to rise again and renew our lives, face its dilemmas boldly and start to commune with it directly being our own co-creator of our destinies. We let ourselves easily off the hook and we can succumb to a stark and bland reality of colorless inertia.
Now is the time to accept a new mantle of “no compromise” and to trade our situations for possibility. Through answering our heart's call due to the intolerable situations we have thusly previously created we can make manifest the incredible opportunities through the medicine contained within your recovery. You are then no longer a victim or have a life that has been lent a definition by virtue of your disease.
The contents of your life may have been felt to be temporarily lost forever but they are essentially intrinsic to you and are the key to your ultimate future. Don't allow yourself to be caught in the drag net of a scar clan that has no capacity to propel itself beyond the periphery of the mental machinations and the nondescript realities. We live within a lllusionary celebration of anguish plaguing our community as some kind of rite of passage. Through having structure to our lives, stepping up to the plate and taking ownership of our very existence we can avoid this type of regressive socialization which plays a decisive role in the expression of our life chance which lays dormant within us.
Our self concept and the way we interract are affected by the internalization of our inherent worth. Following a breakdown we are shunted to the bottom of the socioeconomic scale. Therefore we can come to see ourselves as something "less than" which can deeply entrench our personal paradigms. Yes what has happened to us certainly makes us different and nobody outside the system can come to begin to understand that painful life-changing trajectory. But quietly existing within the confines of psychiatric culture where we are accepted and are afforded some level of esteem from our peers creates a kind of stunted growth. This is because you become indoctrinated into the codification of wounds and the powerlessness granted by group normative sanctions offering no permission to be something more than you are
So we can end up as a corollary of this just drifting through life as we have no commitments, no working schedule or any sense of responsibility. The only strategic position to then accept is that of a victim within a sub-culture that is resistant to change and just dropping out of society altogether. There exists no moral evaluations for why we live the way we do from insiders and doing nothing except existing in a deviant modus-operandi as the normative way of being. Mainstream culture shunts psychiatric patients on both social and economic levels so the strategic position is to therefore assume a lifestyle of living in a sub-stratum of society that does not expect much and penalizes those that do because of group-think.
In order to get from A-B begins with self responsibility and taking charge of ones life is not something that is actively drummed into people with mental illness. Its given some lip service but its not a given. The mentally ill have been stamped with legitimated no-can-do from a hive of well-meaning professionals. People then just get automatically disqualified from participating in the world and just accept the notion that they cannot advance themselves in any appreciable way. Thus alienated from economic and social mores of acceptability the subculture becomes the organiser of values and articulator of hegemonics.
Taking ownership is the only thing one must be called upon to do but the assumption of responsibility is mitigated by so many factors that the possibility seems daunting. But being your own instigator of change requires that you only say consciously that you express a willingness to change and take responsibility in whatever small way it means to you. Then over the days, weeks and coming months and years you become less of a product of reality but instead make life congruent with your hopes and dreams.
It begins by identifying where you seek change and consciously and deliberately EVERY day addressing all the subconscious mind traps that seek to de-limit you. It can be acknowledging things you have been indoctrinated with growing up, whether it people said “it wasn't possible” or the people that have inadvertedly hurt you. This can be accomplished via changing the mind through things like affirmations which you tailor to your unique stumbling blocks in life and after a while you can begin to witness the stranglehold they have had over your life lessen. You needn't be held captive to conditioning, self limiting beliefs or negatively imposed values. It begins with self responsibility and saying yes to life.
Life can have at times have a tendency to keep you stuck in a groove and tied to your self identified mythology. In fact that is all that is in in essence - your own personal myth which you have indoctrinated yourself with and have come to accept as true about your own life situation. It becomes even more pronounced as you get older as your life story has a way of reinforcing itself as being very real and - as if you cannot dream a new world into being. It can have literally years of life examples bearing erroneous testament that demonstrate to you "the power of the world over you" versus "your power to create for yourself".
It is misleading and very false because you have succumbed to your own conditioning and feel that you are not sufficiently a free enough agent to defy your own fated circumstances.
We all embody archetype and accept it as being true when in fact it is a spell that we have come to accept as the totality of our lived experience. "I am this" or "my life is this way and always will be" are ways in which we sabotage ourselves and perpetuate our dramas. Trying to exist outside of this current seems an impossibility but it require of us to self examine where these beliefs have come from and access them from an archetypal model as if we are only emerging from a dream and nothing else. For us to forge new directions we need to let go of old scripts, habits, beliefs about ourselves and finally our reticence not to take action.
We need to uncover the myth for what it truly is a symbolic imprinting from our families and even our cosmic timeline which was destined for us even before we were born. The dynamics that are set into motion with the unique family crucible are those which we can continually assume as our mantle or to finally have the courage to face it for what it was, say thank-you for that experience, dispense with it and rewrite your destiny.
Its hard to release your own life-story when its been dramatised time and time again but of course its via the subconscious mind through which these reinforcing tendencies make your script seem valid and the only viable outcome for you at any given point in time. If you were to closely examine your self talk you would recognise that you are hardwired for certain situations, and possibly as if your habits are a more comfortable and expedient reality than creating new ones.
But in the field of archetypal energies the very embodiment of these powerful forces as personal mythology is something through which you can access and pierce through direct recognition. What has been your prevailing unconscious programs no longer has the power to overtake you and diminish you. It is nothing but a disempowering worldview which is outworn, outdated and one that no longer serves your reality.
We need to get to the fundamental gist of our own personal narratives as the hero or heroine of our life story. We need to identify our own life tale and how it has held us bound to outmoded situations and self identifications. By engaging with your own myth you can re-orient your destiny. The very act of altering small aspects of your life towards desired outcomes and for any kind of aims or ambition has the power to enter a new destiny timeline.
It just involves an upgrade...nothing more than that and a commitment to see steady daily progress in alignment with that reality that acknowledges it in a tokenistic fashion EVERY day.
The first step is to acknowledge your beliefs about you and your life and how they got you to where you are as they become your reality. Do this by identifying your tale and writing it as a summation in about a page as if it were about a mythological character held captive to an inhospitable situation. Write about your early family life as if it were a mythological tale and you will see how this story-telling has held you bound to a drama that no longer serves its purpose. I can guarantee seeing it on paper has the power to literally draw it from the primordial depths and bring it into the consciousness of light of day.
By engaging with this internal dialogue before your eyes you can finally for the first time recognise it for what it truly is, a set of narratives which you have come to accept as the basis for the type of life you have expected to lead. All it is is just endemic patterns that you have unconsciously allowed to define your very existence and hence derive your self identification. What you write has the power to prize open a flood of unexamined reflections and to identify truly redundant aspects to your nature and have nothing to do with your unlimited self. You are really in possession of your God self so in reality there is no such thing as self limitation.
The next step is to write your new life script about things about your life such as where you wish to go, whom would you like to meet and how to engage your new reality instead of being held in bondage to a tale that holds no meritorious value other than to hold you back in life and fill you with bitterness and resignation. You can always adopt a new world view but it requires the same kind of energy you have devoted to reinforcing your disempowering mythology. Just sit and quietly try to write how you intend navigate a new life charter for yourself that is more liberating and encompassing than your previous situation.
Then to daily re-read this and see how you are actively engaged in deploying new methods and means to achieve these objectives. It requires both commitment and diligence to see it through so it is something you owe yourself to revisit on a regular basis to see how much in keeping your new habits take precedence over conditioned behaviours. I guarantee your life will change since these new habits will coalesce into fresh new beginnings.
"The ultimate aim of Taoism and traditional chinese medicine is to re-organise our consciousness and put us on a path that enables us to develop from ordinary people into cosmic beings. Chi is the secret ingredient in this and you could say that the chi cycle in the 24 hour flow of cosmic energy is the recipe. The Taoists understood the universe is a massive chi matrix, a weaving of interconnectivity and following the chi cycle is the means by which we can link into flow. Once we do this our destiny becomes clear and the impossible becomes possible" ~ Jost Sauer
I initially discovered the daily 24 hour chi-cycle through a christmas encore presentation in The Living Now Magazine distributed free of charge in health food stores around Australia. The new chi-cycle converts wrote into the magazine to prosyletise how the this ancient principle adapted for modern times had the potential to create groundbreaking change for your lifestyle and overall wellness. It promised a radical shift in your wellbeing and health by honoring your body's inherent natural rhythms on a day-to-day basis.
It picqued my interest because from my early diagnosis and hospitalisation we had the issue of "routine-routine-routine" drummed into us which of course had the opposite effect - people resisted it wondering the reasons for this insistence. Nobody understood the serious gravity of avoiding routine and it is well known amongst psychiatric circles that patients having no daily commitments, schedules or places to be became languid, passive, retiring given to irregular hours and not having a single ounce of structure to their lives.
I was then curious how this ancient cosmic routine steeped in intiquity could have lasting effect on my happiness, my state of mind and internal self regulation of chi. To understand the chi cycle you have to initially get acquainted properly with chi. You do this by following the chi cycle and live in harmony with chi as outlined in Jost Sauer's small book "The Perfect Day Plan". It is simple to learn and very easy to accomodate without any inconvenience whatsoever, you can begin implementing the practices immediately and effortlessly. Its a subtle therapeutic tool but with powerful far-reaching effects - Your life begins working for you instead of against you. As the chinese saying goes "a few oranges can move a mountain"
By tuning into chi it has the bonus of aligning you into your unique path to purpose which only intensifies over time, the messages get clearer and you gain clarity regarding what your aims and ambitions should be. The Taoist texts suggest that the chi cycle itself directs you to a state of illumination regarding your mission on earth and to realise your destiny by being a cosmic being. Which is a welcomed thing. Many folk don't always know why they are here and what they should be doing with their lives - the chi-cycle is a call to destiny to embrace your ultimate potentials and thereby fulfill your unique agenda.
Many Mental Health Conferences cite the biggest number #1 quandry people have is their unique soul purpose which can get sidelined by the devastating effects of psychiatry as well as detouring into the sub-culture because social valourisation becomes a demoralising force. The chi-cycle acts as a bridge to the non-physical planes which reveals even more to you as you continue to abide by the simple guidelines! These have been mapped out by ancient chinese sages, it is nothing new - they used to see patterns in nature, the stars and the seasons and by aligning with these natural forces you can bring your body into harmony with the rhythmic movements of nature. Chi is consciousness within itself and contains energy and movement. Its a patterning of existence not unlike that of the seasons, it is permeating every aspect of our world and can be harnessed for maximum gains.
Chi interacts with our body on a 24 hour loop and spends two hours in each organ. There are specific things you can do within those time windows which are naturally supported by the universe. By moving in accord with the cosmic flow you will be able to both effectively use and replenish your reserves and be demonstrably efficient with your daily schedule. By honoring the cycle the healthful emotional qualities which are attributable to your organs become manifest. You can start exhibiting freedom - liver, happiness - spleen, concentration - kidney, and love - heart.
By following the cycle you are supported and empowered as most people in whatever way live out of accord with their natural rhythm and as a result experience a separation from source energy. You can then go on to experience a lack of self adjustment and are hardwired for stimulants and drugs for a pick-me-up because your chi is not harmonized and you feel a sense your life isn't all that it should be. You can expect to be more productive and your energy levels improve in addition to increased stress tolerance and feeling more mentally and emotionally stable.
Many of your symptoms from your former lifestyle begin to disappear and it also embraces weightloss as an added bonus in addition to a dramatically improved outlook on life. There are many personal objections I have received from people unwilling to stick to a routine but when you make the adjustment you can expect major changes afoot in your own life such a more spontaneous and healthier lifestyle that enables you to honor your unique blueprint and fulfil your destiny as its all encoded within the chi permeating in your body. The more you work with your destiny the more contentment and happiness you will have. The more you avoid it the harsher your life will be. It will give you the kind of pleasure that goes beyond immediate gratification in all its modern guises.
The chi-cycle lifestyle is to connect to the universal matrix that always supports your aspirations and makes your endeavours possible. It will further the health of your internal organs and engage you with a more pronounced vital rhythm. Getting your intentions to do the same activities at the appropriate times will create a properly sheduled lifestyle which will be the foundation that will give you the much needed impetus that you require to feel guided and whole. The chi-cycle is easy to learn, requires minimal investment and the effects are very marked and appreciable. By closing off ourselves to this possiblility the portal "to source" remains closed. Each hour we have the choice to align with chi through these sacred time gateways and to embrace the consciousness residing within us or not.
THE DEMARTINI METHOD FOR DEPRESSION
I have experienced cognitive behavioural therapy with a clinician in the past and in retrospect I have criticisms over its ability to truly lend perspective or added dimension to one's lived experience of depression. Its a lopsided approach that gets you to place overemphasis on happy situations by daily management of your moods. I have heard some commentators say it is like painting over a rusty fence - the depression is the underlying rubric that needs to be fully healed in a quest to see the inherent worth in a rotten situation. I like Dr. Demartini's method, he views life from a perspective of growth from hardship, the jewel being extracted from the murky waters of melancholy - the lesson borne from the wound.
So often in people's lives they have periods when they feel low. This can happen on a daily basis, a weekly basis. But sometimes this low is so low that its called clinical depression and when that occurs people look for solutions but the greatest solution Dr. Demartini, behavioural expert has observed its actually from within. Looking for solutions on the outside is a last resort he would say. Looking within at what you can do from within is what you should start with.
Many times when people have “clinical depression” and they are told they have biochemical imbalances and things of this nature what Dr. Demartini actually observes when he works with people is they really have unrealistic expectations of their lives – sometimes on themselves, sometimes on people around them. He sometimes even defines depression not as a disease but actually a part of the healing process. He defines depression as a comparison between your current reality to a fanatasy about how you wish life would be and if you have this expectation on yourself or others or on the world in general to be something other than what it is you have an unrealistic expectation.
The way it is, is the way it is.
And any time you have an unrealistic expectation on people to live outside their values or to you living outside your values you set yourself automatically for symptoms we call depression. Now any time you have an unrealistic expectation on yourself or other people you'll have what Demartini calls the ABCD's of negativity – you'll have anger towards yourself within, aggravation towards yourself within, you'll feel blame – you'll blame them or you will blame yourself, you'll feel like you're betraying yourself with them, you'll feel critical, you'll challenge them or yourself and you'll feel despondancy despair or depression. But those ABCD's are actually feedback mechanisms from within you. Your body-mind to your consciousness to let you know you have unrealistic expectations. So Demartini does not define depression as a disease.
He defines it actually the body-mind's feedback to try to give you realistic expectations. The reason he says that is because when he applies a series of questions inside the Demartini method and he actually asks the questions that calm down the unrealistic expectations, their depression lifts. If he he actually went and identified the downsides to the fantasies or unrealistic expectations that they hold on themselves or other people or the world in general & stack up the drawbacks to fantasy and dissolve the fantasy and then write down and list the benefits of the things they are experiencing once they're back in equilibrium all of a sudden they don't have depression and they can't even identify. They can't even look for it or find it – its just not there – because depression is a comparison of your current reality to unrealistic expectations that you are addicted to. And as long as you're addicted to anything that's a fantasy – whether its going to be a benefit or a drawback or peace rather than war, or nice without mean or kind without cruel or any one of those in a one-sided world.
When life has two sides the other pole, the depressive side is to rebalance you and to actually give you a feedback mechanism to help you set realistic self expectations in real time, real goals and real values according to what is true. When the second we do that our depression lifts and we are back into a state of gratitude and appreciation for our own magnificence and the magnificence we are surrounded by. So if you are having depression, Demartini encourages you to look within before you search without and to ask the right questions because the quality of your life is determined by the questions you ask.
So if you are feeling a little low, or sad or clinically depressed, Demartini would like to offer you some practical things to do. Stop for a moment and be really present and think about what it is you are depressed about. The more content specific you can get about what exactly you are depressed about the most powerful way you can transform it can now emerge. So first is why exactly are you depressed because in order to be depressed you have to be comparing whatever is going on in your life to the way you would wish it to be or hope it would be or fantasize it to be. So identify what it is you are depressed about you can ask yourself this question~ so what are you comparing your life to? The expectation, the unrealistic expectation or the fantasy you're holding onto. What id it you wish it would be then the way it is. It may be something in your finance, it may be something in your relationship, it may be something in your health or any area of your life. But wherever that is you need to actually identify what it is in your life you are actually comparing it to. Once you do – lets say you're not having the money you want or lets say your relationship is not as fulfilling, or lets say you are expecting someone to be there for you when they haven't been or somehow you are expecting yourself to be successful in your business by now but you're not. Whatever that expectation is, once you isolate the one or many components of that unrealistic expectation or fantasy.
Then you can go in there and ask what would be the drawback if it that was real. Because a fantasy or unrealistic expectation is an assumption there is going to be a benefit without a drawback, a positive without a negative, a pleasure without a pain, a gain without a loss, an advantage without a disadvantage. But if you go in there and ask about that fantasy or unrealistic expectation what would be the drawbacks? What would be the pain and bring that down by stacking up the drawbacks 10, 20, 30 or even more in some cases and until its flat until you can see there are just as many benefits as drawbacks in the alternative to what you're experiencing. Once you actually balance that out the fantasy you're comparing your life to is neutralized and spontaneously you're about to see the benefits of where you are because no matter where you are in life, no matter what you do there is always a pair – benefits and drawbacks.
So if you are expecting your life to be a benefit without a drawback you're going to feel a drawback without a benefit by comparison. So by going into the fantasies the unrealistic expectations the wishes you had and identify them content specific and ask what are all the drawbacks to each one of those things you are expecting and stack up those drawbacks until you're no longer addicted to it no longer going “oh I wish it was this way” You would realise there would be just as many challenges and benefits at that time if there was to occur . You will immediately start to feel a lift to where you are. You can't appreciate where you are if you keep comparing it to a fantasy. You can't appreciate the benefits of life if you're sitting there holding onto fantasy that has no drawbacks. So by coming up with the drawbacks you'll start to see the benefits.
Once you finish that you can nowtake the thing you are so depressed about and so ask: “what ARE the benefits of that happening in your life?” And if you bring down the fantasy with the drawbacks and bring up the benefits to the thing you are experiencing and flat line them, bringing them into balance, its impossible to feel depressed anymore, in fact you can feel grateful, your heart will open up and you're going to realise “Wow – the way “it is” in my life is “on the way” in my life and you're going to appreciate your life. Its a very powerful process – the quality of your life is the quality of questions you're going to ask. If you ask questions which bring balance to the mind, you open your heart and you feel grateful for your life again. Now if for some reason while you are doing this and stumbling over the process. The magnificence of life for what life truly is, is far better than fantasy
Pessimism feeds off the past, optimism dines out on the future
~ Lyn Birkbeck
So many people can wind up feeling "stuck" and stymied by routine habits and that the possibility of release from this daily grind seems unlikely and almost impossible at times. We feel as if life can lose its lustre as if there is no other way out of the imposed void and the existential anxiety we face. It is as if we are deemed to plod along in an ongoing pedestrian fashion to live this way for a undetermined time. Consigned to a colorless vaccuum and no appreciable ways of addressing the inner emptiness and inherent meaninglessness and futility.
To disengage from this restrictive mindset means to attend to undo-ing the personal scripts we have accumulated over time that creates the limitation, disenfranchisement and plain boredom. We are inclined to think that “the world out there” is far more powerful and deterministic than the interiority of our own minds. Yet this accepted falsehood, this stark resignation will unwittingly bind us to the mundane and bland world which we we are trying to escape from . We are blinded to possibility of never being released from our hemmed-in conditioning through the sheer force of outside pressures that crowd and impede our ability to act.
Our lives can at times take on a dull and inhospitable landscape and we wonder where to act and how to break out of this rut as if we are going around in circular motion with no end in sight. The never-ending loop which binds us to a series of habits, diminished expectations and drudgery can easily make us succumb to the humdrum and the bleakness of emotional emptiness.
The seeming impossibility of navigating ourselves somehow into the more lush areas of life can make us wonder if this is all there is to the human experience. But the truth is that to some degree we are only limited by our own imaginations despite our designated challenges along the way that we all are compelled to face. But we can re-birthing of our own lives by just by firstly accepting the simple fact that there is no separation between ourselves and our desired aims and objectives. We can feel that drawing the desired changes into our life an immediate impossibility, that luck does not favor us and the thought of trying to engage in greater life expressions a naive wish. This needn't be an illusion for people and to unwittingly tether us into dreary and remote states of inertia and feelings of being hemmed in.
But we can choose to disengage from this intricate weave of lack and begin to engage a new life of fullness and co-creation. By recognising the things that magnify our joy you begin to open up your creative energy that exists within you. Begin experimenting with drawing into your sphere the things that will begin to accustom yourself to this authentic expression of who you desire to be.
It can start with the smallest of steps like changing your routine, eating different food, wearing a new outfit or even, learning to play a musical instrument or going to a new locality. These will act as a foundation for stepping outside your timeline, the simple act of altering habits and taking a different direction however small can in effect engage all kinds of potentialities on a grand scale.
By inquiring about anything new no matter how inconsequential or worthless the endeavour to do so may initially appear, the uncomfortable “sameness” will unhinge itself and drop away like a spent leaf off a tree. Be willing to dare to try anything new, to embody these new and fresh experiences. That leads us all where we are headed ultimately in life. It just takes a willingness to say "yes" to life at every opportunity and emerge out of those dormant periods of nothingness and bland realities
Life is about flux and change and by wrapping our minds around this inherent truth will melt away existing blocks and dormant limitations. Going outside your periphery means to let go of conditioned habits and restrictions - the intrinsic apathy that undergirds modern reality. From this juncture a new vantage point is opened, portals into new tracts of experience naturally open up and life presents even more for us to experience enjoy.
It just takes a moment to be willing to engage with new information that presents itself to you and a desire to sense its inherent value as something beneficial to challenge you on every level of your being. Feeling is if the possibility that the universe is conspiring to your favor.
We are creation itself, its our identity and to create is part of our inherent make-up as human beings, its our natural state. Each time you elect for change in your own life and do even one small action differently, it breaks the shackle to the past and accelerates your momentum to enjoy the fullness of life & realign yourself with your creative life enhancing principle – to be a self renewing human being.
Life does not have to be about feeling stuck but one of synchronistic signs and omens and a willingness to explore them as they emerge into our lives. It begins with making a choice to “act” and not to cultivate notions that the endeavour is fruitless and potentially yields nothing. You are notsetting yourself up for the disappointment you have been accustomed to - the ongoing lack and privation. Its a time of re-genesis where you instantly choose to release the past and move into endeavours that support your wellbeing and intrinsic joy.
In this realm possibility abounds and you can optimise your life, embrace new adventure and feel fulfilled instead of feeling bound by lack and limitation. Everything within the world co-arises within you, actualization of self is the natural by-product of this endeavour - abandoning the familiarity and sameness and stepping into areas of growth and renewal is the key. At each and every step you are awakening to portals of destiny serve to open you to living an epic life
I have been following the cosmic current and we will soon be approaching the midpoint of a Universal 9 year. 2016 is accepted as a 9 year as you add the digits for the year and arrive at 2+0+1+6=9. The number 9 is a universal year of abundance but as we approach the turning point of 183 days which marks the halfway point of a leap year there is still plenty of opportunity to delve into the latent potentials of a 9 universal year for you personally. There are still 183 days to go. If you have not been able to harness the full planes of expression of this benefic number which embodies a global energetic theme, then you can still capitalise on any trends given by your own unique numerology report. You can easily calculate these yourself
The trick is to know how to marshal the energies of the number 9 and to intimately know how it impacts your own personal numerology for 2016. There are a number of ways you can still seize valuable opportunities which I will outline below.
The first step is to pull out your numerology profile report which you may allready have or elect to have and look for every single place where a number 9 appears. If there are no 9's in the main aspect of the profile like
* Life path I Expression I Soul Urge
Then you can look to other aspects to your chart such as
* Planes of expression I Subconscious Self I Cycles I Transits I Karmic Numbers
You can also examine your Personal year and Month numbers for 2016 because some will be a 9
The next step is to methodically write down where each number 9 is located and read carefully the aspect of your profile because it is where you are wrapping up a big karmic cycle in 2016
Review this guidance throughout the rest of the year, its time to either celebrate boons or to let go completely of outworn situations, objects or people that no longer serve your highest and best self. You must do this to take advantage of opportunities serving you this year and into the future or otherwise you will repeat this cycle into the future.
If you have few number 9's or no 9's then wait for the symbolism of the number nine turning up in your life and immediate environment. As soon as you see a 9 or patterns or multiples of 9's, stop and take immediate note of what you are thinking of in that very moment. If the thought is negative in nature then it is no longer serving your inherent potentials into the future, so just let it GO! Chances are you are stubbornly holding onto outworn attachments that will have the opposite effect - thereby delaying rewards that you should really be entitled to receiving. If the thought that comes to mind is positive than see it as a sign to embrace fully the abundance you are open to receiving.